Actress and model, Cara Delevingne is recounting her ordeal with coming out as she admits to struggling with being open about her sexual preference. The 30-year-old said she identifies as “queer” and “gender fluid” and that she’s on a “very personal journey” into her sexuality.
The actress, in her new documentary “Planet Sex,” spoke unambiguously about what her preferences are and the struggles she faced growing up queer, admitting to being “suicidal” about it.
Delevingne also revealed in her series that she donated her blood sample to scientists in order to assist in a scientific investigation.
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Cara Delevingne Is On A ‘Very Personal Journey’ Into Discovering Her Sexuality
Cara Delevingne has come forthrightly on her struggle with “being open” about her sexuality in her new documentary “Planet Sex.”
In the second episode of the documentary titled “Out and Proud?,” Delevingne revealed her struggles with “being open” about her love for women. “Even though I’ve been queer, I haven’t really been able to live a queer life,” the actress shared per BBC.
“I’m on a very personal journey into my own sexuality. You may or may not know I have had relationships with both men and women, but I still struggle with being open about just how much I love women,” Delevingne explained in a voiceover.
The “suicide squad” actress is seen in the series traveling around the world, speaking to scientists and activists on finding answers to questions that border on attraction and sexuality.
On her sexuality, the 30-year-old model used the term “queer,” claiming “it felt fluid and free” and that “it didn’t put too much pressure on what I was deciding to be.”
Delevingne Reveals She Had Suicidal Thoughts
Delevingne admitted to being suicidal and said making “Planet Sex” helped her through it. She recounted her ordeal with “internalized homophobia” and her struggle with “crippling self shame.”
“I thought about ending my life, like I had multiple times, and I’m so glad I didn’t because if I can help any other kid that means the world to me. It means the world to that little queer kid I was or I am.”
According to her, not having anyone to talk to and her battle with internalized homophobia and shame made her feel like she was abnormal.
“‘I was never in the community, yes I came out but I never went to Pride, I never went to these parties, I never met these people. I never developed my queerness, I’m coming to it all very late.” She said.
The “Suicide Squad” actress also revealed that working on the documentary helped her through it.
“It has very much changed my life. Now I’m happier than I’ve ever been. I feel really, really proud of what we created,” she per Daily Mail.
She Opened Up On ‘How Much She Loves Women’
Delevingne shared on the show that she has more long-term relationships with women than men. “Sexuality is a spectrum and mine wavers, but I’m probably, definitely more on the side of women. I like having sex with men, I just don’t date them. I might though, you never know.”
Per BBC, She explained in episode four of the series that she is a “She” but likes to dress as a man.
“I am a ‘she’ right now. But I also like dressing up as a man and being a ‘he.’ You don’t have to put so much pressure on yourself about what you are, who you are. Whether it’s masculine and feminine, it’s just who I am.”
The actress, who was rumored to have dated British singer, Jake Bugg, added that the constructs and binaries that are given are “stupid,” claiming she’s proud to be a woman but doesn’t have to “sit in a box.”
Delevingne Donated An Orgasm To Science
Delevingne donated blood samples of her before and after orgasm experience to science to help study the “gender climax gap.” The actress said she thinks “female sexual desire” has been repressed, and that she’s certain because of her own personal experiences.
Delevingne claimed that according to scientific data, 95% of straight men orgasm during intercourse, while just 65% of straight women do, although she thinks those figures don’t even do justice to the issue.
On the message she’s trying to pass across, The supermodel said she hopes other young people get similar clarity over sexuality and gender questions.
“I want people to have the sort of conversations that are in the show. I think hate and fear come from things that are not spoken about or fears about questions.”