Former Nickelodeon star Jennette McCurdy is opening up about the moment she “broke.”
In her new book, “I’m Glad My Mom Died,” she detailed a moment on the set of “Sam & Cat” when her co-star, Ariana Grande, said something that “undid her.”
Jennette McCurdy Details Moment She “Broke”
In an excerpt obtained by The New York Times, McCurdy writes, “What finally undid me was when Ariana came whistle-toning in with excitement because she had spent the previous evening playing charades at Tom Hanks’s house.”
The excerpt continues, “That was the moment I broke.”
McCurdy has been vocal about her dismay for her time at Nickelodeon and the shows she was involved in.
The actress also alleges she was not allowed to pursue outside work opportunities, while Grande was allowed to do so.
Ariana Grande’s Bragging Broke Jennette
When “Sam & Cat” was canceled in 2014, McCurdy claims she was given $300k in hush money to not publicly speak about her experience and time starring on the Nickelodeon series.
She says she rejected the offer, which is apparent given she’s openly expressed her ill feelings.
Last year, McCurdy opened up about her time on “iCarly” which shot her to fame. “Sam & Cat” was a spin-off of “iCarly.”
She did not rejoin the original cast for the Paramount+ reboot of the hit Nickelodeon show.
During a March 2021 episode of her podcast, “Empty Inside,” McCurdy said she’s leaving acting completely.
It’s a thing of her past.
McCurdy admitted she was “ashamed and embarrassed” of parts she played in the past.
Jennette Was Embarrassed By The Roles She Played
“I was a famous 19-year-old and making a bunch of money, and I felt like I had everything at my fingertips,” she said during the episode. “But I was deeply unhappy, and I actually really resented my life because I didn’t like the projects that I was a part of.”
She recognizes that the shows she was involved in played a big part in her fans’ childhoods, but that didn’t make it more enjoyable for her.
McCurdy explained, “I hear constantly, ‘You made my childhood.’ And I think that’s great that they had that experience. But that just was not my experience, and I felt a lot of shame — that I wasn’t able to identify at the time — because I didn’t like waltzing onto an over-lit, cheesy set and shouting a line. It felt so pointless and shallow.”
She explained that playing roles like Sam Puckett on “iCarly” and “Sam & Cat” was so difficult for her because she was “very different from the character that she was playing.”
“To be known globally for this thing that’s not really me, it was just like, What the f**k am I doing?” the actress said.
McCurdy didn’t hold back, “How do I even find myself when I’m 19, and I’ve been famous for all the years that I would normally be stumbling through finding myself, yet I’m known as a thing that I’m not. It just was — ‘hellish,’ I think, is not too intense of a word.”
When her mom died in 2013 after battling cancer, McCurdy made the bold decision to quit acting for good.
She also opens up about the toxic relationship she had with her mother.
McCurdy details an email her mom sent before her death in which she called her daughter a “slut,” “floozy” and “an ugly monster.”