During the service, Diddy spoke for nearly 18 minutes and it was clear he did not prepare his remarks. Instead, he spoke straight from the heart.
“God, I hope one day I get me a girl like that,” Diddy began, remembering the first time he ever saw her during a recording session with Al B. Sure during their days at Uptown Records.
“I would come into the office every day,” he said, “and she worked at the front desk, and I would be so excited to come up in the elevator. To know that I was going to see her.”
He talked about how their relationship grew throughout the years, telling the audience, “She was my friend first. She was my confidante. She was like my guidance, still is. I was just open … We fell in love and honestly, her love was too much for me to handle. It was a lot to handle, to take in.”
Diddy, clearly a little overwhelmed by the moment, stopped at one point to say, “We didn’t really plan for this. I definitely thought I was going to go first. God didn’t have it be that way.”
Then he reminisced on a time earlier this year when Kim was there for him when he really needed it.
“From the top of the year, I was going through a real dark time,” Diddy said. “I was really depressed. And I don’t know why, maybe it was cause I was getting older. I just went through a dark, dark time. And she would come over and make sure … even though we weren’t together … She was just like, ‘Come on, Puff. You gotta get up. You gotta get up out the bed. You gotta get moving. You gotta get up.'”
Diddy then addressed his children, telling them, “I just want to say, to my kids — Justin, Christian, Delilah, Jessie, Chance, and the other man of the house, Quincy — your mother instilled in me this, that I pledge in front of everybody right now, that I will always be there for y’all. I will always take care of you. To the girls especially, we’re about to enter into some different type of times. I want y’all to be able to talk to me about everything, and I mean everything.”
He then spoke of his feelings about her passing, telling the audience, “I’m not scared. I’m not scared. I’m sad. I’m hurt. But I don’t feel she left. I’m not like, ‘Oh, she’s not here.’ People leave in the physical. But their energy, their vibration, their frequency, it lives on forever.”
Diddy began to close his eulogy by addressing the friends and family in attendance, saying, “I want to thank each and every one of you in here today because she loved y’all. If you in here, she loved you, she touched you, you cared enough to come. And I just want to tell y’all thank you so much.”
And he saved his final thoughts for Kim, saying, “And Kim, we gonna miss you so much. I’m not gonna miss you too much because I’m not going to let your voice inside of me stop talking. I know you like to talk to me when you get on those rants and I just want to let you know, I’ll be listening … We love you, Kim. Thank you.”