Sean “Diddy” Combs has opened up to fans about the hard week he has been having. “It is Friday and I can’t lie, I had a rough f***ing week. I ain’t gonna lie. I went into a dark state, which is a little state of depression,” admitted the 51-year-old. Before anyone could jump down his throat, the musician made sure to acknowledge that even his money wasn’t making him happy. “Like how could you be depressed and I you got so much s**t. I don’t know how that s**t works. I just kept fighting and start asking God to help me.”
Battle With Depression
The father of six first talked about his battle with depression back in 2020. “It was a hard year,” he insisted. “The energy was real heavy out there. I even got effected. 2019 was the year I honestly felt like I wanted to give up.” The former rapper who is usually the picture of happiness and shows it off on his social media pages admitted that his life got dark. “For a whole year, I would have to say I went through a real dark state of depression.” He credited spending time with family and friends to “help lift me up”.
It is no surprise that Diddy who recently changed his name to Sean “Love” Combs, was suffering from depression. He tragically lost the mother of some of his children Kim Porter in November 2018. Together the two share twin daughters Jessie James and D’Lila Star, and son, Christian, Diddy also acted as a father-figure to Porter’s son from her relationship with musician Al B. Sure, Quincy. Love shared that one thing he learned from his depression is that the disease does not discriminate. “Nobody is immune to it, no matter how much money you have, how much success you have, depression is at an all time high.”
Coping & Staying Strong
The “I’ll Be Missing You” rapper mentioned that family plays a critical role in how he stays ahead of his depression. He was a cool dad before but now the millionaire is a great dad! He is often seen spending time with all his kids on family vacations, shopping trips, and even modeling gigs. He and all his girls are featured in this month’s Vanity Fair magazine. The proud dad gushes about his girls and shares that if it was not for Porter, he wouldn’t be as determined as he is to stay on top of his depression. “I had to start to deal with it when I lost Kim,” noting that the mother of his kids was “it” for him but still as tragic as her passing still is for the rapper, he wouldn’t change a thing.
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‘Let Go & Let God’
Diddy ended his post by sharing another way he copes with his depression; he turned to God. “I kept praying to God and God helped me. I kept breathing. You gotta fight your way out and I did thanks to the glory of God,” he states. “I let God and I let go,” the mogul says as a mantra of sorts. The rapper is so serious about his mental health that he started a little movement called the “F**k It Friday movement!” He describes it as “a weekly national holiday to celebrate yourself and a healthy state of mind. If you love yourself take this day to say f**k the bullshit, f**k the stress, f**k the news, f**k any of the bullshit that’s in your life that’s out of your control!”
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