Britney Spears Opens Up On 'Trauma' She Endured During Her Conservatorship

Singer Britney Spears is once again opening up on the trauma she endured during her conservatorship, bullying from the media, and her Instagram use.

The 42-year-old pop star was subject to a 13-year conservatorship from February 2008 to November 2021. She opened up on many different experiences that she faced during that time in her October 2023 memoir, "The Woman In Me."

On Wednesday, May 22, Britney Spears took to Instagram to address how much she uses social media. " I try to do 30 posts a month ... I used to do 12 a month ... so people can kind of understand why I work so much ?????? !!!" she wrote before addressing her conservatorship. "There was a time when I was held in a spot against my will for a very long time ... well to be honest I haven’t really been the same since. I kind of thought that because I stopped doing IG as much back, then like 7 posts a month, they thought I wasn’t working hard enough so ever since then I’ve been working harder !!!"

"But the thing is I realize now nothing was wrong with me !!!" she continued. "I portray myself as very together on IG but there are a lot of people who don’t know what my body physically went through !!! I’m not here to be a victim, I’m here to express that even though I did a book about my experiences the trauma is still there and probably will always be. It’s extremely deep and to my knowledge, all I can do is do the best I can and know it’s okay to be upset some days or not be okay and that’s something I don’t feel like the world has allowed me to do !!!"

Britney went on to say, "I feel the news is nasty but they don’t seem to ever be nasty to other people. I feel bullied and it’s not fair to me ... all I can do is try to be awakened by prayer that connects me to a loving manner not made of fear or threats, but by trying to forgive the people who made the right side of my body have serious nerve damage to where I can’t even think sometimes. I have to be the bigger person and forgive my own parents... but that’s extremely hard!!! I will do my best to let it go and not let others down by my anger ???!!!"

This is not the first time that Britney has stated that she has tried to forgive her parents, who placed her in a court-ordered conservatorship from February 2008 to November 2021. Earlier this month, she admitted that she missed her "beautiful family" while admitting that every family has "issues."

Last Wednesday, the “Toxic” singer took to Instagram to reflect on the relationship that she has with her family. “We all have issues with our family but dear God you can’t help how much you love them. I’m not in this picture but I sure as hell feel like I am. On a side note … If you know me, I’ve always ended up at this kids table at every function I’ve ever been to !!! The most elite expensive dinners and I always find myself just like this sitting in the back with the kids !!!”

“Anyways … I’m posting this pic because my family is absolutely beautiful and I miss them. So not to sound righteous but in a world of chaos and confusion the trickery of the devil is to mislead you and humiliate you … and make you think you’re less than !!!” she continued. “I wanted to share this pic because although I’m not in it … I sure as hell felt as though I was !!! Pssss swipe to see !!!” Unfortunately for fans, Britney took down the post on the same day she shared it.

Britney loves to spend time at the beach and share footage of her fun with her 42.2 million Instagram followers. Although she deleted a recent post stating that she just got back from Mexico this week, her Instagram feed shows that she spent time there just last month.

“What a beautiful treat to myself !!! I believe in God again every time I go to this destination and there probably isn’t another person that feels as blessed as I do every darn time I leave ??????????? !!!” she wrote in a caption that shows photos and videos of her trip. “But I will back sooner this time !!! Game of chess!! When people say we are so happy for you I’m like well how come you all got offended when I wasn’t in the coffin at my funeral ??? Jk !!!”