Rachel Leviss Believed She 'Deserved' Reunion Vitriol

The tenth season reunion for "Vanderpump Rules" brought in record shattering numbers for Bravo.

For Rachel 'Raquel' Leviss, the reunion brought a realization to life.

The "Vanderpump Rules" star is opening up for the first time and telling her side to Bethenny Frankel on the "Real Housewives Of New York" alumna's podcast.

Leviss' story is being told through two different episodes of "Just B With Bethenny Frankel." The first part premiered on Wednesday, August 16th, with the second released the following day.

In episode one, Leviss, 28, revealed countless aspects about life behind-the-scenes of "Vanderpump Rules" over the last five months.

She opened up about her recent stay at a treatment center, opened up about the extremely personal reason behind her name change, and confided in Frankel about her worst "Sandoval" related fear coming true; she was terrified of alienating Tom Sandoval, 40, down the line.

Despite all of the public noise, Leviss told fans she forgives herself for her actions.

She is honest in revealing she had learned honesty was one of her "core values" and going forward, it isn't a value to be compromised.

Leviss touched on multiple aspects of the "Scandoval" scandal during the second part of her appearance. She and Frankel discussed Leviss' relationship with Scheana Shay, her expectations for breaking into the reality TV atmosphere, and the aspects of which she believes helped further the careers of her castmates while continuing to have her public narrative stay stagnant.

The "Vanderpump Rules" star also gave insight into how she felt during the season 10 reunion, wherein she came face to face with her cast mates for the first time since the scandal broke.

The three-part reunion shattered ratings records for the 18 to 49 viewing demographic, a factor which Frankel poured over. While the pair discussed the specific numbers, Leviss revealed how "Scandoval" saved the show from a near-extinction. She alleged the show was close to being canceled prior to season 10's debut.

One frequent element of the reunion that likely brought in the numbers? Leviss' co-stars angry commentary.

Frankel took a second to read a selection of angry adjectives and commentary Leviss' co-stars used toward her during the reunion.

When the 'RHONY' alumna asked Leviss for her thoughts, she responded, "Nobody should ever be spoken to like that," and reiterated that their target happens to be a human being. She also revealed it was easier for her to "dissociate" in the moment rather than accepting their words at face value.

Leviss channeled her self worth when revealing to Frankel, "I know that I am worthy (of love)." She also told the 'Just B' host she thinks of herself as "a miracle" due to being adopted as a child by her biological mother's sister. Becuase of her deep sense of self worth she proclaimed she cannot "accept those words" thrown at her during the reunion.

The 'VPR' star had an idea prior to the reunion that she would be "emotionally abused" by her co-stars.

Frankel asked her if she believed, post-reunion, if she had been emotionally abused during the reunion, and Leviss gave a resounding "Absolutely," adding, "In the moment, I thought I deserved it."

Listeners were eager to weigh in on the second episode's content on the 'Just B' Instagram post.

"I think the way how the cast treated Rachel is just showing their true colours. The amount of hate would destroy many people or push towards suicide. Andy also should not let them bully her. There is a difference in being angry or being a victim and bully and push people towards death! I was shocked that Bravo aired that! Ariana and Lala and the brunette are the most judgemental and full of hate people I saw so far on tv," one listener wrote.

"Are you serious she literally abused the court system when she didn’t need a restraining order and there are actually people out there who do need them in domestic violence situations and etc! This is the most privileged conversation I’ve ever heard and just when I started to feel bad for Rachel this made me realize she really is the problem and is so unaware of what she did. She made her bed now lay in it," another said.