Xavier Bonner Breaks Silence Amid Controversial Split With Charity Lawson

"Bachelorette" star Charity Lawson sent Xavier Bonner packing after he admitted his past revolved around his infidelities.

Lawson, who has been open about her past struggles as her ex of six years cheated on her multiple times, was shocked when Bonner admitted his past and then said he couldn't promise he would do it again in the future.

The controversial breakup has had Bachelor Nation fans talking for two weeks, and Bonner finally broke his silence.

"It's taken me a while to write this, but here goes…," the former "Bachelorette" star began to write in a lengthy Instagram post.

"I never would've guessed that one DM asking me if I was ready to find love would take me on such an intense journey of self-discovery," he continued, adding, "For the first time in my life, I let go of the facts and figures to instead focus on letting my feelings lead the way. The process wasn't easy, but it's been immensely eye-opening."

Bonner then wrote a letter to Charity Lawson specifically, thanking her for her time and allowing a safe space to be vulnerable. "To Charity: Thank you for always creating space for me to open up and step outside of my comfort zone as well as for being willing to have tough, raw conversations that pushed me to think more deeply," he wrote. "You deserve everything and more, and I wish you the best in finding your forever person."

He continued to write, "It's never easy to share the worst parts of your past with someone you love (let alone the world!), but honesty and accountability are necessary for growth. This journey was all about vulnerability, Although I may not have always been as clear or eloquent in expressing myself as I would've liked, I'm forever grateful for this experience."

Bonner concluded by saying he knows he has more work to do and will continue to be more self-aware. "This was the ultimate experiment in love for me," he wrote. "And while all experiments leave me with unforgettable lessons, this one, in particular, has better prepared me to move through life with more self-awareness. I know there's lots more learning, healing, and work to do, and I'm looking forward to becoming the best version of myself. ?"

Fans commented on Bonner's post, thanking him for being vulnerable and acknowledging his courage in admitting what he did. "It took a lot of guts to confess what you did in front of an international audience. Wishing you lots of healing, peace, and growth ❤️," one fan wrote, while another chimed in, "Thanks for being honest; it takes courage! Today is a new day; hold your head up and keep striving to grow; that is how we live our best life. All have sinned and come short. This post is amazing, and we appreciate you!"

Another fan expressed, "Well said, and you delivered with such eloquence. It was so exciting watching you every week. I'm so happy this opportunity brought you to a place to honor accountability. That's huge!!! Keep learning and growing, and take advantage of every opportunity that will increase you in goodness and fulfillment. The best part of this experience is seeing in real-time all of the hard work your parents sacrificed to assure you are absolutely who you are AMAZING!!! I can't wait for the next step; I'm proud of you and grateful to have you as an awesome role model for the boys. Love you loads!"