Nick Cannon Tributes His & Alyssa Scott's Late Son With 'Painful Anniversary' Message

Nick Cannon is expressing his vulnerability!

The actor, who shared son Zen with Alyssa Scott, lost the tiny tot at five months last year in December to an aggressive form of brain cancer. On the anniversary of his death, the 42-year-old, who is recovering from an illness, paid tribute to him in a very touching post. 

In the black and white picture, the father-of-twelve sat on the grass dressed in a hoodie and jeans paired with a beanie. Smiling widely at the camera, he cradled his son in his hands. The little boy, asleep peacefully, was dressed in dungarees, a white shirt, and a beanie like his dad. 

The following picture showed him in a wooden cradle, resting his head on his arms, his eyes closed, and a gray knitted cap on his head. The last slide saw him lying on his back with his arms behind his head with a white cloth on his chest. 

"Physically, I'm definitely on the mend, but Mentally and Spiritually, I'm broken," the caption began, adding, "Been tossing and turning all night, and as much as I know I need rest, last night I couldn't sleep at all."

The "All That" actor stated that he could not believe it was a year already since the toughest day of his life occurred. Calling the experience a "painful anniversary," he added that losing a child had to be the "heaviest, most dark and depressive experience" he would never get over. 

The rapper disclosed that he repeatedly repressed several emotions, including pain, guilt, and sorrow, on a daily basis admitting that he was far from perfect and would often fail and make questionable decisions. He noted that people who knew him well knew that he loved "hard, big," and with his whole heart and soul.

The "Gigolo" star expressed that he wished his son felt a lot more love while he was still alive while noting that his spiritual advisor encouraged him to be steadfast as he was experiencing a challenging season in his life. He also added that it was a situation that would make him stronger and trust in the "peace that surpasses all." 

The TV star revealed that while it was uplifting, it was tough, and he initially wrote that he would be ok from his hospital bed to avoid wasting people's prayers. He wrote, "but I can use those prayers right now… 💔Continue to Peacefully Rest My Son, Zen Scott Cannon. We Love you Eternally ❤️‍🙏🏾."

While he might be feeling heartbroken about the loss of his late son, there is still hope as the "Dime Piece" rapper is expecting another child with the model Scott who, according to The Blast, posted a few intimate throwback pictures.

Losing her child might have been hard on her, so she chose to keep the news of her new baby from the world and only broke the news a few months ago. The expectant mother in her story gave fans a glimpse of a time when her bump was noticeably smaller, dressed in a cute patterned dress.

She looked gorgeous in a batik-looking halter-neck dress with a plunging neckline that showcased her ample bust. She styled her hair in generous curls and sported smokey eyes and red lips.

The couple stood together with the TV personality dressed casually in a hoodie, jacket and his signature turban cradled her bump lovingly. The 29-year-old captioned the post:

"And I thought I was showing here… LOL." She posted a current picture of her much larger bump in a mirror selfie rocking a backless pink dress, writing, "Another bumping selfie 😅 baby is so comfy in there…me not so much 😵‍💫."

The "Drumline" star, who suffered a few illnesses, including being diagnosed with Lupus in 2012, was admitted to the hospital recently. The Blast shared that this happened after hosting his Wild 'N Out sold-out show in Madison Square Garden. 

Sharing pictures of himself in a hospital gown and a face mask on his page, the "Love Don't Cost a Thing" actor expressed his shock at the turn of events as he disclosed that he had promised himself he would avoid being in the hospital again. He noted the importance of looking out for oneself to have the strength to do so for others. 

He ended the post by writing, "Don't trip, though; I don't need any well wishes or prayers, just some solid rest, and I will be back on the journey to becoming stronger than ever. It's just pneumonia, nothing I can't handle."