Jennette McCurdy Reads Shocking Email From Her Abusive Mom On 'Red Table Talk'

Jennette McCurdy is opening up about the years of abuse she's endured from her mother. On the newest episode of "Red Table Talk" with Jada Pinkett Smith, her daughter Willow Smith and Adrienne Banfield Norris, McCurdy reads a shocking email her mother once sent to her. The email can also be found in McCurdy's new book, "I'm Glad My Mom Died."

In the clip, the "iCarly" star, 30, reads aloud an email her mom once sent her about a TMZ photo online. "'I am so disappointed in you. You used to be my perfect little angel, but now you are nothing more than a little' — all caps — 'slut, a floozy, all used up," McCurdy reads. "'And to think you wasted it on that hideous ogre of a man. I saw the pictures on a website called TMZ. I saw you rubbing his disgusting hairy stomach. I knew you were lying about Colton.' (I had told her I was with a friend, Colton.) Add that to a list of things you are: liar, conniving, evil.'"

The email continued, "'You look pudgier too. It's clear you're eating your guilt. Thinking of you with his ding-dong inside of you makes me sick. Sick! I raised you better than this. What happened to my good little girl? Where did she go and who is this monster that has replaced her? You're an ugly monster now. I told your brothers about you and they all said they disown you just like I do. We want nothing to do with you. Love Mom - or should I say Deb since I am no longer your mother? P.S. Send money for a new fridge; ours broke.'"

In the book, McCurdy opens up about her life with her mom, the abuse, and the healing process. McCurdy recently told PEOPLE, "I did not know how to identify without my mom. And I'm not going to lie, it was very hard to get here. But now I'm at a place in my life that I never would have thought was possible. And I'm finally free."

The book also goes into detail on particular instances of abuse, her eating disorder, and the alleged Nickelodeon "hush money" that was offered to stop her from speaking negatively about her time as a child actor at the network. The book quickly became number one on the New York Times Bestsellers Print Hardcover list. McCurdy captioned an Instagram photo showing this accomplishment, "well this is just unbelievably cool. thank you everybody for making this happen ! six year old me would not be able to believe it."

In a recent Instagram post that shows the actress signing copies of her books, she said books are selling out. "just signed a bunch of copies of I’m Glad My Mom Died @vromansbookstore ? update: books are sold out. check my link in bio for other places that have restocked !!"

McCurdy will be on the premiere episode of the Facebook Watch original series "Red Table Talk" airing on Wednesday, September 7 at 9 a.m. PT/12 p.m. ET.