Britney Spears Details Conservatorship Trauma: ‘My Family F---ing Killed Me’

Singer Britney Spears is sounding off about her family again!

She has been in a public feud with her little sister Jamie Lynn Spears ever since the release of her memoir “Things I Should Have Said” in mid-January. In the back-and-forth messages, Britney has opened up about her past and about how poorly her family treated her, sharing that they would not allow her to drink coffee or wine during her stifling 13-year conservatorship.

Take a look at what Britney had to say today!

Although Britney had fun in the sun, it looks like her vacation in Maui is officially over!

“I stayed in Maui for 18 days,” Britney began. “I didn’t want to leave … I mean at all!!! Although I couldn’t go to the beach because the paps were there … it was still pretty cool !!!”

“There was a private pool that was absolutely adorable connected to the spa … private hidden caves I didn’t know about with saunas … outside showers … I was in the jungle !!!” she joked.

“The main thing I worked on was staying healthy and all that required was getting up … no excuses … and just breaking into the first sweat !!” Britney said. She has been delighting her fans with snaps and video montages of her working out in the gym over the past two weeks.

“I will be honest … the hardest person on me is myself so I can get a trainer and do all the fundamentals but the only times I sweat my a—off is when I dedicate myself to it !!!” she continued. “That’s the whole thing depression can keep you from doing … that was the whole thing when my family did what they did to me … holding me against my will … which they say was HELP !!!”

“No I believe in help but not arrogantly unasked for help,” she continued. “The only thing honestly disturbing about me is depression … but you don’t take people out of their homes for that !!! There was a different nurse every day looking at me when I changed … not having a say on absolutely anything … depression is getting stuck in dark moments in your head … well … that whole four-month experience amplified my depression by 100 !!!”

“The people who worked for me stood at the doors saying I couldn’t go anywhere … I honestly thought they were trying to kill me … cus it seemed to me like some sick joke when I would call and say I’d been working here for two weeks … when can I have the keys to my car and go home ??? Their response … you can come and go when we tell you we can !!!”

“I need boundaries … I need to know you can’t just leave me here every day!!” Britney continued. “Their response … you have to stay in this treatment home for two months then go to our facility for a month … but we really DON’T KNOW when we will let you go home !!! I felt like it stunted my growth when I was there !!!”

“I could only use my upper body because I had to sit in a chair 8 hours a day and gave like 8 gallons of blood every week !!!” she continued. “72 people left me in a car weekly .. it was outrageous and didn’t make sense because I put so much heart in my work before and I always did my best !!!”

“My family f---ing killed me and that’s exactly what I thought,” she continued. “I thought that or either it was just a sick joke … maybe someone was gonna walk in the door and say ‘ha ha we fooled ya’ !!! No … that never happened !!!”

“My whole reason for bringing this up is to let people know sometimes the system of nurses and doctors can be a ploy to make others NOT better … to make them more sick so they can stay on board and profit !!!”

“That was the thing … I was too nice in the conservatorship and never spoke up … they took it too far with me !!!” she continued. “I’ve learned through this that being kind is wonderful … but sometimes with seriously responsibility being kind if worse than two cents … but I couldn’t get angry or scream or anything !!! I felt suffocated !!!”

“At one point I thought … wait do I have cancer and they don’t want me to know and this is some secret therapy for people with cancer ??? Honestly, it was insane the hours I had to be available to seven different people !!!”

“I got extremely ill in that place … I couldn’t’ talk … I was on a high dose of lithium … it was demoralizing !!!” she continued. “Sometimes in certain states people have to succumb to violence for survival but that was the whole thing … I wanted to kick and scream all of it but my family sat back and acted as if I was not a big deal !!!”

“The most damage that was done to me is the sick psychology of my own family convincing me that I was OK with what they did … I deserved that !!!” she wrote. “Sorry, we can’t help you while they are doing illegal stuff to you !!!”

“Now I would spit in their faces … my one regret in life and my whole 40 years if I could go back in time I would spit in their stupid f---ing faces !!!” she wrote. “I would be the first person to admit I’m pretty messed up by it all and haven’t even come close to sharing all of what they did … it’s honestly shocking but in time I think things will unfold in a bright way !!!”

“I know I have a ways to go so I’m taking it a day at a time !!!” she concluded. “Pss keeping It real !!! Psss I still dream about spitting in their f---ing faces … THAT’S IT !!!”