Billie Eilish Says Her Exposure To Porn At Age 11 ‘Destroyed’ Her Brain

Billie Eilish is one of the youngest music stars trending worldwide. Over recent years, she has released songs like “Bad Guy” and “Ocean Eyes,” two songs out of many in her discography that have become successful hits. 

Eilish became popular at the age of 16, so she did a lot of maturing and growing up in the spotlight. Despite this and her growing popularity, she is one celebrity who isn’t afraid to be honest in their music, interviews, or in public.

In one of her recent interviews, Eilish spoke about her experiences when she was younger, particularly her exposure to porn and her feelings about it. Keep reading to find out what she said.  

Eilish has often used her songs to send strong statements about how she feels about specific topics. She has spoken about mental health, first love, growing up, and many other things. 

She also did this in one of her songs, “Male Fantasy,” where she spoke about pornography. The song’s lyrics include statements like, “Distract myself with pornography, I hate the way she looks at me. I can’t stand the dialogue; she would never be that satisfied. It’s a male fantasy. I’m goin’ back to therapy.” 

With these lyrics, it was clear Eilish was talking about her experience with pornography, and she clarified this in a recent interview she had with Vice. The “Lovely” singer revealed that she wrote “Male Fantasy” because she believes that porn is something that is “misogynistic and totally ridiculous.” 

She said, “I decided that it was actually a really good idea for a song to talk honestly about pornography because it’s an uncomfortable but important thing to talk about.”

Eilish spoke more about how she views porn and how it has affected her adult life in an interview with Howard Stern. E! Online reported the interview and stated that Eilish said, “As a woman, I think porn is a disgrace. I used to watch a lot of porn, to be honest, I think it really destroyed my brain and I feel incredibly devastated that I was exposed to so much porn.” 

She also shared that she was exposed to porn on a regular basis right from when she was 11 years old. Eilish explained that at the time, watching so much porn made her feel cool and like “one of the guys,” but in the long run, it had a substantial negative impact on her. 

She said, “I think it really destroyed my brain and I feel incredibly devastated that I was exposed to so much porn. I’m so angry that porn is so loved, and I’m so angry at myself for thinking that it was OK. The way that vaginas look in porn is f–king crazy… No vaginas look like that. Women’s bodies don’t look like that. We don’t come like that.”

Eilish admitted that despite the initial benefits she enjoyed from watching porn, she realized that it also had its disadvantages as she grew older. She shared that she soon began suffering from nightmares due to some of the violent and abusive content she watched.

She also stated that porn had a significant impact on how she viewed herself, sex, and relationships in general. She said, “The first few times I, you know, had sex, I was not saying no to things that were not good. It was because I thought that’s what I was supposed to be attracted to.”

Eilish is one of many women who suffers from the adverse effects of early exposure to pornography. In recent years, women like Eilish have begun to come out more and speak about their experiences, which has helped address the issue and provide awareness of the harm porn can do.

After discussing her experience with pornography with Howard Stern, Eilish spoke about her issues with romance. She explained that she finds it difficult to find a partner and be in a relationship as a celebrity and stated that she is far from what would be called a “serial dater.”

She said that the lack of relationships is because most people she meets are terrified of being with her or think she is out of their league. Regardless of this, the “Therefore I Am” singer has had her fair share of high-profile relationships. 

Her 2021 documentary “Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry” revealed to her fans that in 2019, she dated rapper Brandon Quention Adams (popularly known as “Q”). However, the two have long broken up, and Eilish’s fans can’t wait until she reveals her next romantic partner.