Britney Spears Reveals She Wasn't Allowed To Perform New Songs During Conservatorship

Singer Britney Spears seems to be finding her power in prayer.

In an Instagram post on Monday, December 27, Britney wrote at length about prayer and her own personal relationship with God.

“When you wake up. PRAY,” she began. “When life gets hard. PRAY. If you’re unsure. PRAY. When you’re happy. PRAY. God’s always with us.”

On the next slide, Britney wrote a lengthy post revealing her own relationship with God.

“Did you know the closer you are to God there will always be more tests … everywhere,” Britney began.

“A relationship with God is never ending ….. that’s why prayer is a constant in my life !!! I have issues … I’m not perfect so I have to remind myself daily to look up and know I’m not alone.”

“I had an experience three years ago where I stopped believing in God!!!!” she continued. “From every angle I was being hurt for no reason and my family was hurting me … I went into a state of shock and the way I coped was being fake denial … it was too much to really face. It then came full circle and my heart took over and I was a lion …. Not a very nice one at all … but I screamed alone a lot and I kept all that pain to myself !!!!”

“They say go to the source for healing … the person who hurt you … go to them and tell them … I’ve never gotten to do that,” she revealed. “I chose the fake denial ‘everything’s totally fine’ approach because I didn’t want to cause conflict.”

“I was NICE, FAKE and I was absolutely screaming inside…” she went on. “I wanted to be nice but what they did to my heart was unforgivable!!!! I asked for 13 years to perform new songs and remixes of my old songs ….. I had two months off in between each show settings for four years in Vegas … and every time I asked I was told “No….” !!!!!”

She said “It was a set up to make me fail yet I knew exactly what I want my fan s to see and it didn’t make sense how network television shows are showcasing my music with remixes of all of my music …. Yet the person who owns the music is told no !!!!”

“They even gave remixes to my sister but why was I always told no?” she asked. “So much wasted time to only embarrass me and humiliate me and I guess it seems odd to most now why I don’t even do my music anymore… that’s just the surface issues.”

“People have no idea the awful things that were done to me personally … and after what I’ve been through, I’m scared of people and the business !!!! They really hurt me !!!!”

“Not doing music anymore is my way of saying ‘F--- you’ in a sense when it only actually benefits my family by ignoring my real work … it’s like I’ve subconsciously let them win …”

Britney also revealed that she uses prayer to help her overcome her “serious insecurities.”