In the second part of her Diane Sawyer interview on “Good Morning America,” the actress gave a glimpse of her growing belly at the time by showing an old photo from her pregnancy.
Revealing she was 42 years old when she fell pregnant with Ashton’s child, Moore opened up about the heartbreak she experienced after finding out she miscarried.
“I can’t even really bring fully to words how lost, empty, desperate, confused. I really lost sight of everything that was in front of me,” she told Sawyer after finding out the baby no longer had a heart beat at 6 months.
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“I really lost sight of everything that was right in front of me, which is the family I had. I think the weight that it put on Ashton – you know it’s kind of a natural thing to pull back when somebody’s clinging too tight,” Moore explained.
She said that she was “clinging” to him out of fear their relationship would crumble after the tragedy of losing their child.
Moore had a reason to worry because her instincts were right and their marriage did fall apart.
She began drinking again after 20 years of being sober and revealed she was taking up to 12 Vicodin pills a day.
The actress, who’s doing press to promote her memoir, “Inside Out,” also spoke about the moment she found out Ashton had cheated on her.
Moore told Sawyer she called her then-husband to confront him after she got a Google alert about the infidelity.
“I asked if it was true and he admitted it right away. I think my response was ‘Are you f—kidding me?’ That was it.” she said.
Revealing she could barely breathe following their phone call, Moore immediately jumped on a red carpet to promote her film at the time.
She continued by stating their breakup was a “level of devastating for me that wasn’t really about that relationship. It was really about my whole life.”
Explaining it triggered emotions from her childhood, she added, “It was about being the 2 year old that wasn’t safe. That this really represented that I’m not lovable, that I’m not deserving and that’s not about him. That’s all about me.”
Moore and Ashton Kutcher’s divorce was final in November 2013.
This is the second part of Moore’s interview that “GMA” has released.
In the first, she discussed her childhood rape which occurred when she was just 15.
She’s also revealed several real-life experiences with her ex-husbands, including threesomes with Kutcher.