Carrie Underwood spoke recently about her three miscarriages, acknowledging that the pain of those losses never really goes away.
Underwood spoke with People about the miscarriages as well as her two children, Isaiah, now 4, and Jacob, who was born in January.
Underwood says at first she blamed herself for the miscarriages, but her husband, Mike Fisher, reminded her that it’s no one’s fault.
“Of course you wonder if it’s you, what am I doing wrong, or what have I done wrong. I remember having conversations with Mike trying to make sense of it all.”
— People (@people) June 19, 2019
“I was still trying to do my job and put on a smiley happy face and be Carrie Underwood,” she says in The Guardian about going through these traumatic times in her life.
“And then I’d go home and fall apart.”
In a story for The Guardian, Underwood explained the difficulties of performing and being in the public eye:
“A lot of times I feel like I’m alone. I’m obviously aware of people being around me. But it’s like I’m in the song alone on stage,” she said.
And she revealed that she’s a little bit of a loner:
“I like to be alone. My husband is probably the only person this planet I could’ve married – my mom, when I told her I was engaged, was even like ‘I just never really thought you’d get married.’ And so I feel like when I’m alone and singing and I hear nothing but music, it’s a nice place to be.”
I went to Cincinnati to interview/ drink wine with @carrieunderwood who was mighty and open and opinionated as we talked about everything from music to miscarriage. I thought she was a thoroughly excellent woman: https://t.co/G9XZy5OvNq
— Laura Barton (@missbarton) June 26, 2019
Underwood says she sought out her faith to help come to terms with events that were beyond her control.
“I’ve always wanted to be a good daughter to my parents but also to God and not complain, because we are beyond blessed,” she says, according to People. “I get to do what I love, I have an incredible family. I have Mike, I have Isaiah, I have great parents. I have all of these amazing people around me, and I don’t want to complain, ever.”
Underwood says these days, with her Cry Pretty Tour 360, she hopes to give her two kids a sense of normalcy by renting houses instead of hotels during the tour. And by the looks of her recent video posting, her kids like that they can be close to her too.
Carrie Underwood's baby only likes Mama's Song… pic.twitter.com/aZ3iCADiq7
— E! News (@enews) June 23, 2019