YouTube Star Brittani Boren Leach experienced every parent’s worst nightmare when she had to say goodbye to her infant son after he was found not breathing on Christmas Day.
She revealed in an Intagram post on Wednesday that her son, Crew, was napping at a relative’s house and was unresponsive when they went to check on him.
“I don’t have any words right now, other than to desperately ask for your prayers. While at a relative’s house last night, Crew laid down for a nap and when I went to check on him, he was not breathing. We are living a nightmare, and I’m dying inside. Please pray for my baby. This can’t be real,” she wrote.
The day after, she provided an update on Crew’s condition.
“Right now Crew is stable and the ventilator is breathing for him. They are working on stabilizing his body and tomorrow he will have an MRI to determine his brain function and that will determine the next step,” she wrote.
“I can’t explain to you what this feels like. This kind of thing only happens to other people. Not me. I just want to crawl in bed with my baby and nurse him.”
On Saturday, Leach shared a final post about the situation, revealing that Crew had passed. She is unspeakably grief stricken.
“It’s all just too much. All of it. I know God has a plan for this, but I’m really really mad at him right now. I cry behind the bathroom door while Jeff holds me, because in the room over everyone else gets to laugh and go on with their lives, and it makes me so angry. Running tests on my sons body to see how his organs are functioning before they take them. Pumping breastmilk just to pour it down the drain. Hearing a baby cry. Seeing a baby his age. Shopping Nordstrom for the dress I’ll wear to my son’s funeral. It’s all too much. I’m sorry to vent, but this is my heart. And I need all the prayers to get through this.”
“Our family is praying for y’all so hard. Just Heartbroken. I am so so sorry,” Jason Aldean’s wife, Brittany, commented.
“Please pray for this family. Send them all your love and support,” said “Teen Mom” star Chelsea Houska.
“I don’t think you should ever need to apologize for venting… the weight of this situation is incomprehensible for most. Remember you are so strong and amazing. You are allowed to feel how you feel. You have so many people holding your situation close to their hearts right now and praying hard. Sending nothing but love to you,” Emily Noel added.