Angela Simmons is finally putting into words what life is like without her ex-fiancé one year after his death. The “Growing Up Hip Hop” star broke down crying in an emotional clip from Thursday’s episode of the WE tv series. The 32-year-old shared a sneak peek on her Instagram in which she described a recent conversation with her three-year-old son about the sudden death of his daddy while sitting down with a life coach. Sutton Tennyson was tragically shot and killed in November 2018 in Atlanta, Georgia
“I was with my son, and super emotional right, even to talk about it. He was looking out the window and he’s like, ‘Daddy, white car,'” Angela Simmons said while tearing up. “I question him, ‘Where do you see him?’ or ‘Who is Daddy? What does he look like?’ I’m asking him. I’m like, ‘Do you want to see your dad?’ and he’s like, ‘Yes.’ So he comes over and I start showing him videos and pictures and stuff, and he stopped. It’s not like he’s full conversational yet, so this is what kind of makes it emotional. He was like, ‘Is he alive?'”
Angela Simmons described being taken back at the word “alive” because that’s not in her son’s everyday vocabulary. “So, for him ask that is like — whoa. Did you really just say, ‘Is he alive?'” she recalled. “I was just like, ‘No. He’s not.'” The reality star then explained what she told him next. “This is the first time I’m having to explain it to him, which is, like, super sad, because he’s three. How do you explain to a 3-year-old that they’re never going to see them again? Other than my own way, which is like, ‘He’s in Heaven, he’s with God.’ [I say] all of the great things, then he kind of laid his head in my chest– and told me he was sad.”
Angela Simmons said this was one of the hardest conversations she’s ever had. “He’s a happy kid, and that whole day, he was just kind of, like, mopey and sad,” she stated. “And I told him, ‘I got you. You’re OK. You’re good.’ … It was that conversation, but it was super hard to have that conversation with him.” Simmons was not engaged to Tennyson at the time of his death. The duo split in 2017 and after his death, Angela Simmons posted a tearful message about his passing. “Growing Up Hip Hop” airs Thursdays at 9 p.m. ET/PT on WE tv.