Halsey has spoken in an interview with New Music Daily Show, hosted by Zane Lowe about the challenges she faced during her pregnancy.
The American singer who had quite a busy year from nursing her pregnancy to welcoming the child and then finally releasing her fourth studio album was ecstatic about all she had been able to achieve in the past few months.
However, Halsey also expressed that the journey was not easy, as it came with countless criticisms that greatly discomforted her. At some point, she felt like she was doing the whole parenting thing wrong despite having planned it all out from the start.
Here is a list of things Halsey spoke about in the interview.
The Criticisms Triggered Feelings Of Shame
According to the new mom who came on the interview with her partner, screenwriter Alev Aydin, they received several taunts for deciding to get pregnant amidst a thriving career.
“I got treated like a teen mom a lot of the time, you know what I mean? Where people were like, ‘Oh my God, you’re so young, and you have so much to do in your career, and you’re not married and you’re this,'” they said, disclosing that the criticisms made them unhappy.
“It triggered a lot of old feelings of shame in me where I was like, how can you have an opinion, that kind of opinion on me making this decision?” she said.
Halsey also admitted that, on the ‘verso,’ if they had picked their career and continued to work rather than getting pregnant, they would have been deemed money greedy folks for ranking their career over having a family.
“But then, there’s also: ‘She worked too hard, she never had a family. She’s going to die alone. She was too obsessed with work, she never found someone. It’s a shame she’s not going to have any kids, her career isn’t going to hold her at night,'” she continued, adding that in the end, she chose what her heart wanted.
Growing Bond With Alev And Ender
The Grammy Award-winning songwriter further expressed her love for her partner saying that their bond only grew stronger following the birth of baby Ender Ridley Aydin.
“I love my partner,” Halsey said. “Our relationship is so full of love and passion and communication. I remember having that moment when I was probably five or six weeks pregnant and being like, so what happens now? Do I have to be boring? So many of the things that I self-identify with are not compatible with motherhood. Well, that’s when you realize too, that’s when you take a step and you go, ‘Oh, I’m holding onto my trauma because it’s part of how I define myself and I’m never really going to grow unless I really let go of that trauma,'” she said.
“It’s almost like I’m emptying my vault of all these stories,” she tells Lowe, “before I start over, and it’s like, okay, now I have to be responsible for someone else.”
A deeper look at the album cover revealed the strong message Halsey was trying to convey through a story about bonds between people—mother and child, and between lovers.
Absence From Social Media
Also, one of the hot topics of the interview was their decision to step back from social media during the time it took for her pregnancy to mature.
Halsey stated that they agreed to take a leave of absence from social media because they were worried about the pressure it would bring, and how it would affect their unborn child, noting that the “consequences were too high.”
“The consequences of letting social media stress me out or cause me grief. It’s no longer just me being affected by it.” Halsey remarked.
“There’s a whole other person whose nervous system is being affected by the status of mine. So I had to kind of make that choice.” Halsey continued.
Halsey is back on social media, as she recently shared some photos of herself breastfeeding the newborn. She also disclosed insights into her new album and album cover with her fans.
New Album Release
Taking to her Instagram page, Hasley had a lot to say about her new album titled “If I Can’t Have Love, I Want Power.”
“This album is a concept album about the joys and horrors of pregnancy and childbirth. It was very important to me that the cover art conveyed the sentiment of my journey over the past few months. The dichotomy of the Madonna and the Whore. The idea that me as a sexual being and my body as a vessel and gift to my child are two concepts that can co-exist peacefully and powerfully.”
“My body has belonged to the world in many different ways the past few years, and this image is my means of reclaiming my autonomy and establishing my pride and strength as a life force for my human being.” Halsey remarked.
She hoped that the cover image would go a long way in eradicating the social stigma around female bodies & breastfeeding, as pregnant and postpartum bodies should be admired rather than despised.
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Produced by Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross Halsey of the Nine Inch Nails, the pop star’s fourth album came out on August 27, 2021.