Erika Kirk Reveals The Heartbreaking Prayer She Made After Charlie’s Killing

Erika Kirk recently opened up about the most heartbreaking moment of her life, revealing the private prayer she whispered in the seconds after losing her husband, conservative activist Charlie Kirk.

During a live interview, the Turning Point USA CEO shared that she had begged God to let her be pregnant when Charlie was shot and killed in September, a hope she described as the only possible blessing that could have emerged from the catastrophe.

In a live interview in Arizona, set to air on Monday, November 24, Erika Kirk spoke with Megyn Kelly, revealing the deeply personal hope she carried in the immediate aftermath of her husband’s killing.

“I was praying to God that I was pregnant when he got murdered,” the widow told Kelly, per the New York Post during the Glendale tour stop.

The confession stunned the room, especially when Kelly reminded her she had shared that longing privately before.

When asked how many children the couple had planned to have, Erika responded simply, “We wanted to have four.”

Her recollection made it clear that the family expansion wasn’t just a casual dream, but an active hope shared by both husband and wife.

Erika described thinking that a pregnancy “was going to be the ultimate blessing out of this catastrophe,” a bittersweet glimpse into the hope she held onto as she processed the shock of losing the man she had built her future around.

As she continued speaking, Erika Kirk explained that she and Charlie had both been praying for another child.

“I was praying. Both of us were. We were just excited to just expand our family,” she said.

Her comments quickly expanded into a larger plea, urging young women not to delay starting families if it’s something they want.

“When I see young couples, I tell them, ‘Please, don’t put it off.’ Especially if you’re a young woman. Don’t put it off, you can always have a career, you can always, you know, go back to work. You can never just go back to having children. And they grow so fast and so quickly,” she urged.

Erika and Charlie already share two children, a boy and a girl, a reality Megyn Kelly acknowledged when she told her, “Thank God you have the two. Thank God.”

Erika agreed, adding that one day their children will come to understand who their father was, both publicly and personally.

The recent interview marked one of Erika’s most vulnerable conversations since Charlie’s assassination, a murder that sent shockwaves across the conservative landscape and prompted tons of reactions from political leaders.

At the activist’s memorial service, held inside Arizona’s State Farm Stadium on September 21, Erika stood before thousands and delivered a speech that stunned many.

Not only did she highlight his mission, saying he wanted to save young men just like the one who took his life, but she also spoke words few expected.

“I forgive him,” the podcaster said of Tyler Robinson, the alleged assassin. The crowd erupted as she added, “I forgive him because it’s what Christ did. The answer to hate is not hate.”

Erika Kirk’s interview comes a few weeks after she revealed why she refused an invitation to appear on Jimmy Kimmel’s show to receive a public apology following the host's earlier controversial remarks.

As The Blast reported, Sinclair Broadcasting Group had approached Erika to make amends on air, but she declined, telling Fox News’ Jesse Watters, “I told them thank you, we received their note. This is not our issue, not our mess.”

She emphasized that an apology must be genuine to hold any value, adding, “If you want to say I’m sorry to someone who’s grieving, go right ahead. But if that’s not in your heart, don’t do it. I don’t want it. I don’t need it.”

Erika stressed that she will not participate in what could be a staged or performative act meant to appease public opinion or media pressure.

She explained that the incident is personal and not something she wishes to publicize or use for entertainment purposes.

A few days later, Erika faced fresh criticism online after footage of her long hug with country star Jason Aldean at the Fox Nation Patriot Awards sparked a firestorm.

According to a report from The Blast, viewers accused her of being “too touchy-feely” and called the embrace disrespectful toward Aldean’s wife, Brittany.

During the viral moment, Erika wrapped her arms around Aldean and rubbed his back for several seconds, while Brittany watched in the background with lips pursed.

One TikTok user wrote, “Ugh. So disrespectful of Jason’s wife! Both of them!!!! Yikes. You just don’t do that.”

Others defended the mom of two, noting that there was nothing wrong and described her as a “big hugger.”