Brandi Glanville Breaks Silence On Having Suicidal Thoughts Amid Mystery Illness

Brandi Glanville is opening up about how her illness has pushed her over the edge.

The reality star, who is now finally finding her way back to a normal life, got candid about feeling tempted to end it all in the middle of a debilitating medical condition.

Brandi Glanville went public with her mystery illness in 2023, affirming that it came with severe symptoms, including a disfigurement of her facial features.

The Bravo alum suddenly found herself contemplating life sometimes this summer and may have taken up that offer to leave if not for her kids. Glanville is mom to her two sons, whom she shares with her former husband, Eddie Cibrian.

The former reality star's nightmare began when she put the controversial aftermath of her Morocco girls' trip behind her and suddenly woke up with a swollen face. She recalled that everything seemed like a blur at first, then her face started alternating between swelling and sinking in.

"I felt like something was just eating me from the inside. I'm like, 'It's eating my flesh,'" Glanville said. Since then, it has been from one symptom to another and incessant trips to the doctors, which have drained her insurance and wallet.

"I'm paying the minimum on my credit cards. I've exhausted my savings. At my age, I feel like such a loser in a way, because I was taking care of everything," the media personality lamented.

According to US Magazine, since her health issues began, Glanville has spent over $100,000 on medical bills and now finds herself struggling financially.

As seen on The Blast in April, Glanville confirmed that she has spent over six figures outside her health insurance plan to find the best treatment for her condition.

The TV personality expressed her frustration with the lack of a committed health professional to provide a permanent solution to her dilemma. The different treatment plans consulted have failed to arrive at a concrete diagnosis or substantive treatment step to ensure her recovery.

Glanville emphasized that her search was also to help other men and women grappling with the problem to find a solution. In her words:

"I feel for them, like, I know exactly what they're talking about. The pressure in their head, how they feel it's gonna explode. … I'm at my wits' end."

The former reality star added that her symptoms have seemed to worsen as time ticks on her getting a solution. She explained that the lump in her face moves to either position at will and extends to the rest of her body, obstructing normal function.

Comparison is a thief of joy, but Glanville did it anyway as she reflected on what it truly felt like missing out on life and the fun times, as she grappled with the swelling and pain. According to her, things almost looked similar to life during COVID-19, with the crazy side effects as a cherry on top.

The TV star declared that she missed getting intimate with men and socializing with her friends, emphasizing that the former, which was almost regular, has now become a luxury. Glanville confessed that she has lost her sensual touch and may have to learn how to kiss again. 

The media personality also has to deal with the insecurity of her new appearance, which comes with severe anxiety and pain. Glanville stated that she felt like she had lost her old self to the reality of her sickness.

July ended on a pleasant note for the former model, who took to her social media to inform the fans that she had been getting treatment and consultations with an infectious disease specialist.

She praised Dr. Michael R. Scoma for wanting to help her get better and making her return to the old Glanville a possible feat. PEOPLE reported that she traced the genesis of her health problems to the food consumed during the trip to Morocco.

The star shared that the food, mostly meat, was left open for hours outside with flies crawling all over them. Now that Scoma is attending to her case, the former Bravo Star cannot wait to get out of the house and "live again."

The medical practitioner gave further insights into how they have gone in treating Glanville's condition via a response to her post on X. He explained that while care for infectious diseases is an intensive one behind the scenes, it is also a personal journey. 

Dr Terry Dubrow had previously suggested an early treatment for the TV star, noting that "every minute the microorganism is allowed to stay in her skin and do potential damage, she could suffer worse for it."

Not only did the former model suffer a crushing sickness from her time on "The Real Housewives: Ultimate Girls Trip," but her career also took a huge blow.

Glanville noted that Caroline Manzo's allegations of sexual assault against her did all the damage to her life after she was sent off from Morocco while filming. 

Although Glanville denied ever touching Manzo inappropriately, the damage ran deep, and Glanville dealt with the controversial consequence of her former castmate's claims. Aside from the quiet trip back home from Morocco and the end of the contract with Bravo, Glanville's other gigs also got canceled. 

The former reality star shared that the false narratives about her encounter with Manzo spread like wildfire, and she had no time to set things straight before her world came crashing down.

Wishing Brandi Glanville a complete, speedy recovery!