Allison Holker's Heartbreaking Discovery About tWitch Unveiled On One Of Her Hardest Days

Allison Holker has opened up about a devastating discovery she made about her late husband, Stephen 'tWitch' Boss, on one of the most difficult days of her life.

Stephen Laurel Boss, widely known as 'tWitch,' was a celebrated dancer, actor, and television personality best recognized for his role as the charismatic DJ on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and his unforgettable performances on "So You Think You Can Dance." Tragically, he died by suicide on December 13, 2022, at just 40 years old.

As Allison Holker prepares to release her tell-all memoir, she is recounting the heartbreaking discovery of tWitch's drug addiction in a very "scary" moment.

In a recent interview with People Magazine, for their latest cover story, the 36-year-old recounted an emotional moment she experienced just weeks after her husband's passing. While preparing for his funeral alongside a close friend, she discovered a hidden stash of substances tucked away in shoeboxes.

"I was with one of my really dear friends, and we were cleaning out the closet and picking out an outfit for him for the funeral," Holker recalled. "It was a really triggering moment for me because there were a lot of things I discovered in our closet that I did not know existed. It was very alarming to me to learn that there was so much happening that I had no clue [about]."

Among the items were mushrooms, pills, and other substances unfamiliar to her. "It was a really scary moment in my life to figure that out, but it also helped me process that he was going through so much and he was hiding so much, and there must have been a lot of shame in that," she continued.

Throughout their nine-year marriage, Holker believed she and Boss shared open and honest communication, including about his marijuana use.

"That was his alone time. It was his time to recharge, and that was okay," she said, adding that he would often retreat to their guesthouse at night after their children went to bed.

Boss’s final days remain a source of immense heartbreak and unanswered questions. On the morning of December 12, 2022, he checked into a motel less than a mile from their home. According to hotel staff, he appeared calm and showed no visible signs of distress. He carried only a small bag and booked the room for one night.

When Boss missed his checkout time the following day, hotel staff went to check on him and discovered his body. Authorities were called, and it was later confirmed that Boss had died from a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head.

In the hours leading up to the discovery, Holker had frantically visited an LAPD station, explaining that her husband had left home without his car—a behavior that was completely out of character. It was later revealed that Boss had taken an Uber to the motel and placed his phone on airplane mode, ensuring no one could reach him.

The autopsy report confirmed the cause of death as suicide, bringing some clarity but no less heartbreak to those who loved him.

Holker is now navigating life without her beloved husband while raising their children and sharing her story in hopes of helping others. In her upcoming memoir, "This Far," which is set for release on February 4, she details her journey of grief, healing, and resilience.

"It's about how I've gone through so much and I'm experiencing so much presently, but there's still a future ahead of me," Holker previously told People.

She later explained, "I don't want people to feel when they read it that I'm being their therapist. I am not educated in that world, but I had this really traumatic thing happen in my life that only made me realize what I was already working on is really, really important for me to continue on. It gave me more of a focus and more of a purpose, and I really hope I can be an advocate and a voice to people that feel alone or left behind."

Through her courage and openness, Allison Holker is honoring Stephen 'tWitch' Boss's memory while shedding light on the importance of mental health awareness and the hidden struggles so many face in silence.

If you or someone you know is dealing with mental health struggles or suicidal thoughts, contact 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for help.