Jessa Duggar Hopes To Take Social Media Break Following Heartbreaking Miscarriage

Our prayers are with Jessa Duggar!

Fans of the TLC star know the 30-year-old from various docuseries about her large family, starting with "14 Children and Pregnant Again." As the fifth child in a clan of nineteen kids, the Tontitown native stood out with her cheerful personality and gained a substantial following.

However, the "19 Kids and Counting" alum and her family are enduring a difficult period. The reality TV star, who shares four kids with her husband Benjamin Seewald, recently announced the tragic loss of the couple's fifth baby.

Duggar revealed that she lost her fifth child after a miscarriage in an emotional YouTube clip titled "Heartbreak Over The Holidays. In the nearly 19-minute-long video, the grieving mother documented the unfortunate loss of her pregnancy, including the painful aftermath that followed.

The footage began with the touching moment the TV personality and her beau informed their kids — Spurgeon, Henry, Ivy, and Fern — about their sibling's conception back in November. The clip transitioned through the unsuspecting moments leading up to distressing news, including an 11 weeks update.

Jessa Duggar explained that, unlike her previous pregnancies, she fell sick more often and had been "spotting" blood. After relaying the news to her family, they comforted the 30-year-old by singing devotional hymns and praying for good tidings.

However, the mother of four scheduled an ultrasound with her doctor to be sure everything was alright. Alas, the physician confessed that her baby did not "look good." Recalling the heartbreaking moment, the TLC alum said,

"Nothing could have prepared me for the weight of those words in that moment. At that moment, I was just in complete shock. I didn't have words. I just immediately started crying."

After the doctor left the couple to process the loss, the grieving parents sat there in shock, holding hands while crying. "I feel like in some ways miscarriages can be so jarring because you don't have clear signs of something going wrong," Duggar continued, noting that the only sign she had was "minimal spotting for 24 hours."

Due to her history of hemorrhaging, the "Growing up Duggar" co-author explained that doctors were concerned about allowing her to use a drug that would let her "pass the baby at home." Instead of risking possible complications, she received a dilation and curettage procedure to remove the fetus.

Tearfully recounting the moments after the procedure, the Tontitown native confessed that she fell into a pit of self-doubt and pondered about how she could have saved her baby. In Duggar's words:

"Those 10 to 15 minutes before I was taken back to the room where Ben and my mom were waiting were probably some of the hardest in my life. Just laying there feeling so alone."

The emotional toll was indescribable. However, the brunette noted that having her four children support her made the process less difficult. Additionally, the family found solace in their strong beliefs. "When you lose someone so dear to you, it does makes heaven that much sweeter," the grieving mother said.

"We talked about that with the kids. We can't wait to meet this little one in heaven one day," she added. Nonetheless, the 30-year-old admitted that she planned on taking a break from social media to focus on her recovery.

Last year, The Blast reported that the fifth member of the Duggar clan clapped back at trolls for creating false narratives about her siblings and their connections. The drama began after many assumed Jessa did not attend her sister Jill's baby shower.

In a post shared by the siblings' cousin, Amy Duggar, the mother-of-four seemed absent at the event. However, the Tontitown native commented that she enjoyed the party, causing a critic to note that Amy's post said otherwise.

This person's message must not have been the first Jessa had received regarding the situation because she slammed people for sticking their noses in her family's business. "These rumors make me angry, and I'm here to put a stop to it. The narrative these kinds of comments put forward is a false one."

The 30-year-old noted that because her other siblings did not show up for Jill's baby shower, it did not mean there was a rift in the family. Instead, the main problem was the difference in the schedules of 19 adult children, who had their own families.