Madison Beer Is 'At War With' Herself Over Public Image

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In her new Vevo short film, 21-year-old singer and social media personality Madison Beer is getting candid about the pitfalls of having a public image, specifically referencing her own.

In "Madison Beer - Dreams Look Different in the Distance," the star talks about the innermost workings of her mind ahead of the release of her debut studio album, "Life Support."

 Contained within are a bevy of never-before-discussed facts about Beer's life, including a constant internal battle over how the public perceives her.

Beer touches on a variety of topics within the short film, but predominantly discussing the star's own perception of herself, and the negative aspects of it that sometime prevail in her mind.

"For a long time, I have been at war with myself. So much of who I am is grounded in paradox. I used to think love was a type of self-sacrifice. That I had to offer up a part of myself, to edit, and mold, and shift myself, to fit a certain ideal," she explained.

"I have had times where I gave up so much of myself to others that it felt like I could not recognize myself in the mirror," she went on to add. "Sometimes, I feel that I am being seen for all the wrong things and that I have fallen into a cycle of having to prove myself over and over again."

Beer further explained that the process of creating the new album was cathartic in the fact that it allowed her to be at peace and get further in touch with her innermost self.

"Falling back in love with myself meant remembering what I value, by relearning the things that I enjoy, and by speaking and acting in a way that feels genuine to me. I learned to trust my intuition," she recalled of the recording process, going on to tell fans that at one point, "My music shifted once I realized that all the parts of myself that I have been taught to censor my entire life were what was missing in my heart."

"I came to this industry very, very young and it moves so fast that sometimes you lose yourself in the process, it feels inevitable," Beer said of the early growing pains of fame. 

"For a long time. I thought that the only way to be successful was to be a chameleon to what everyone else wanted from me. I started playing a character so that I could offer her up to the public so that when she was scrutinized, it hurt less."

Ultimately, music proved to be her saving grace as usual, with this new album helping her contextualize many of the feelings in her head, "I felt I was falling into a really dark heavy depression and I was able to kind of work through it with making this album. It was very therapeutic for me. My outlet. I'm just grateful for it. While I was going to therapy, I was also going to therapy in the studio. It was rewarding to say the least."