Ireland Baldwin Breaks Silence On Her Pregnancy Struggles

Model Ireland Baldwin took to Instagram on Wednesday afternoon to write a lengthy post that she began with a trigger warning.

"Vulnerability trigger warning. I'm not writing this post for sympathy. I'm only posting this because personally have found a lot of comfort in unfamiliar corners of social media during this time in my life," she began.

"Social media is very toxic and misleading but I have found community in times where I felt like no one understands," she continued. "I'm sharing my innermost feelings with the hope that someone will read this and feel less alone."

"I came across various posts and videos where people were just f*cking honest about how hard this journey can be and it's helped me so much," the 27-year-old wrote. "Pregnancy is hard. It takes so much out of you. I wasn't ready for that."

"I've always wanted a baby with the right person. I grew up with a very jaded perception of what love really looked like and I always wanted to have a child of my own with someone who would treat us right and love us unconditionally," she wrote, possibly referring to the public divorce between her parents Alec Baldwin and Kim Basinger.

"Relationships are hard. Break-ups are very hard. Losing a job. Losing a loved one. Getting sick. All of that is extremely difficult," she continued. "But I underestimated just how hard pregnancy would be on my mind and my body. Being someone who deals with extreme health anxiety on a daily basis, pregnancy turned things into high gear."

"I've struggled to adapt to these changes. Bodily sensations. Pains and aches. Organs going to sh*t randomly," she admitted. "I know everyone has an entirely different experience and mine is easy compared to most, but f*ck it's a struggle. It's so hard to have so much pressure on yourself."

"Forget the physical aspect...I feel my brain and thoughts are going to war every single day. Mental warfare. 'Just wait till the baby gets here, you won't be getting any sleep' b*tch, I don't sleep now," she went on. "SHUT UP. I'm exhausted. I'm unmotivated. I feel like life is passing by and my career hasn't even begun."

"It's hard coming on here and seeing mutuals dressing up for events, getting drinks, working on sets, going to school. It's hard feeling alone. I have my boyfriend who without him, I think I would have lost my mind," she went on, referring to her boyfriend, RAC, who she's been with for over a year. "He's everything and more to me but man, it's hard moving somewhere with no family."

The two have opened up a shop together on the beach in Gearhart, Oregon, called Good Times, pretty far from where Alec resides with his wife Hilaria and seven children in New York.

"It's hard not being really close to family to begin with because they live far or are idiots that I want nothing to do with," she continued. "It's hard seeing other people go through and have their parents close by."

"It's even harder watching some of your friends fade away or not know how to relate to you anymore," she wrote. "Especially when you were nothing to them but a drinking buddy and a good time."

"It's hard making new friends at 27 years old. It's hard keeping old ones close when they're so far away. It's hard when your closest friends have their own sh*t going on and you don't know when's a good time to emotionally dump on them," she added.

"This sh*t is hard. When people expect you to be glowing and angelic and in a constant state of bliss.. it's unrealistic sometimes. I'm a goblin. A bridge troll. A curmudgeon," she went on. "The glow is my skincare routine. It couldn't be the vomiting 6x a day."

"And even through all of this, none of this reflects on how excited I am to be her mom My career isn't going anywhere, and if it is, f*ck it. The friends that mattered most will be there and you'll have more room for new friendships," she concluded, wrapping up on a positive note. "All of this is still worth it but it's ok to admit how hard and scary it all can be. You are not alone."

In the caption, Ireland wrote, "This sh*t is HARD. And you're not alone if you feel the same. And it's ok to be REAL and post highlight reels. It's ok to be happy and sad at the same time. I am grateful but I am struggling and that's perfectly ok."

Plenty of fans and famous friends took to the comments to thank her for sharing her struggles and encouraged her to give herself grace in her journey to motherhood.