Demi Lovato is airing one of her biggest regrets in life.
The singer, who recently revealed she no longer goes by they/them pronouns, regrets making three documentaries about her sobriety journey.
Two of the documentaries premiered on YouTube.
She released “Simply Complicated” in 2017 and “Dancing With The Devil” in 2021 following her near-fatal overdose in 2018.
Demi Regrets Making Documentaries About Her Life
Her documentaries have outlined her struggles with sobriety and recovery journey.
However, now looking back, Demi wishes she would’ve never done any of the documentaries.
In an interview with Alternative Press, the “Holy Fvck” singer expressed her disdain for the docos.
“Honestly, I’m really sick of watching myself, and I think other people probably are too,” she said while sighing. “And if they aren’t, then they can watch my music videos.”
Demi Is Sick Of Watching Herself
Demi released three documentaries before the age of 30, and she wishes she would’ve held off on making them.
She turned 30 on August 20th.
“I wish I would have waited until I had my s**t figured out more because now it’s cemented. Sobriety is what works for me and nothing else,” she said.
In “Dancing With The Devil,” the singer explained how she was “California sober” following her drug overdose.
To Demi, “California sober” meant she allowed herself to smoke weed and drink alcohol in moderation.
She received a great deal of backlash from other celebrities in recovery including Lala Kent.
Many Disapproved Of Demi’s California Sober Lifestyle After Overdose
Kent appeared on “Behind The Velvet Rope” podcast in June 2021 and sounded off on Demi’s ‘CA sober’ lifestyle.
“I don’t like to judge, but I actually think that that’s super offensive,” she said. “There are people out there who work their a** off to never take themselves out of reality and to never place themselves in an altered state.”
It seems Kent’s “altered state” comment actually was a regretful reality for Demi.
She explained that her seventh studio album, “Dancing With The Devil: The Art Of Starting Over” and the accompanying documentary, we made while she was “really high.”
“I was so high the whole time smoking weed that I wasn’t focused,” she said of her last album.
Well, it turned out that the California sober lifestyle wasn’t doing Demi any good and she checked back into rehab in 2021.
Since then, she’s given up alcohol and drugs for good.
If you’re wondering about whether or not Demi is done sharing her story forever… think again.
While it may not come in the form of a documentary, the singer said she still has a lot of life to live.
Demi’s Story Is Not Done
“My story’s not done, so I want to be able to say by the time I’ve written a book, ‘OK, this is me grown up,’” she told the outlet.
Demi is in a completely new era, if you will.
As Alternative Press said, she’s now “Rockvato.”
“Holy Fvck” is a completely different vibe, sound and aesthetic. It’s something her fans haven’t seen in years.
“I’m in a new chapter of my life, and I want my music to reflect that,” Demi explained about getting back to her rock ‘n’ roll roots.
She’s also in a new relationship with Jordan Lutes, aka Jute$.
He’s a Canadian musician who helped Demi on her recent album.
The two have expressed their love for one another on social media. He shared a heartfelt birthday tribute to Demi for her 30th.
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She responded to the post writing, “YOURE THE BEST BOYFRIEND IN THE WORLD 😭😩 I’m just so grateful I get to call you mine because I’ve never laughed like this in my life, I’ve never smiled so much and my heart is constantly so full of love w you 💕💕 this post, this caption… how are YOU real?! I love you honey.. so much.”