Jennette McCurdy Opens Up About Being Able To 'Miss' Her Mom Since Release Memoir

Former actress, Jennette McCurdy, has finally gotten to a point where she can feel some peace about her mother despite the abuse she suffered from her while alive.

Earlier this month, the Nickelodeon star released a gut-wrenching memoir titled "I'm Glad My Mom Died." The memoir explored the abuse, toxicity, and exploitation she faced as a child star. It also brimmed with revelations about her upbringing and her mother's abusive behavior, including forcing her into acting at a tender age.

Now, speaking to Anna Faris on the "Anna Faris Is Unqualified" podcast, the star is sharing that she's now at a point of peace.

Read on for more details.

In a recent podcast appearance on Anna Faris' "Anna Faris is Unqualified" (Via Yahoo Entertainment), McCurdy expressed relief at being able to miss her mom despite the abuse she suffered from her. According to her, she had gotten some peace and found closure from writing the memoir, which detailed the harrowing abusive experience she faced from her mom.

"I think closure is hard to come by if it is even possible to come by," she began. "But I think that's what the book helped me with. I think there was some attempt to find closure. Now, I can have this experience with my mom where I can just miss her."

She continued, "To just have 'oh, I miss her,' and it can just be that. Instead of, 'I miss her, I want to throw something, I'm angry, I'm hurt, I don't want to miss her, I do miss her. It was so f--king complicated for so long, and now it does feel easier."

As she reminisced on her childhood, she shared that growing up in an abusive home was her "normal." Despite the constant abuse she experienced, the author didn't think of her life as abnormal.

"For me, my brothers played Nintendo Goldeneye while my mom chased my dad around the house with a knife. It just becomes so normal, a part of everyday routine," the child star explained.

"When I was little, I didn't realize it was abuse or trauma. I just thought, 'The boys are playing 007, moms chasing dad with a knife, grandma's crying with toilet paper on her head.'"

She also explained to Faris that there was nowhere to hide whenever the chaos occurred because her mom was a hoarder, and the things she collected occupied all the space.

The child star revealed that Nickelodeon offered her $300,000 to debar her from speaking publicly about her experiences at the network. However, she "immediately and instinctively" turned down the money while calling out Nickelodeon for the alleged bribe.

"What the fuck? Nickelodeon is offering me $300,000 in hush money to not talk publicly about my experience on the show?" she said at the time. While speaking to the Faris, she shared that decision was difficult to make as the money could have gone a long way in her life at the time.

"I was 21 and just coming from a place of self-righteousness," she told Faris. "And immediately after the decision, going like 'f--k, that's a lot of money. I could have put my nieces through college.'"

The star also spoke of her life currently, explaining how she's been able to find joy with her present boyfriend, whom she termed "supportive."

She had no idea what "a healthy relationship" looked like and thought certain behavioral patterns, tensions, or fights, were the norm owing to the number of unhealthy relationships she's been in. "I thought these things were normal, and maybe they are for products of dysfunction," the author shared.

"To be able to be in something where it's really good communication and validation of the other's emotions and not having to take on other's emotions and be able to provide support, it's changed my world very sincerely. I didn't know this kind of thing was possible."