'Dog's Most Wanted' Star Duane Chapman Revealed That He Had Suicidal Thoughts After Wife Beth's Death

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Since his beloved wife Beth's death in July, Duane "Dog the Bounty Hunter" Chapman has been struggling to cope. In the season finale of Dog's Most Wanted, Chapman opened up about just how hard it has been to keep going after such a loss.

"I'm so glad I had her the little time that I did. I'm only been alone as I showered and I had to run out of there without a towel, because I can't be alone right now. That's when I start thinking about things. And I start to take a nap, and I reached over to touch something and it was the freakin' dog."

Dog admitted that he's struggled to move forward and has even had suicidal thoughts since her passing.

"I don't realize yet psychologically that she's gone and I'll never ever see her," he continued. "I don't realize that. I just hope I don't live very much longer without her, because now she made the first step, she's through the gate. She's paved the way for me.

I want to take a goddamn pain pill so bad. I feel like if I did something to myself right now, and passed away, suicidal, I'd go up to heaven and be like "Hi honey," and would go, 'you dumb—s why did you do that?' or would she go 'wow, you're here.'"

Friends of Chapman admitted that they removed some prescription pills from his access to remove temptation. Chapman has been working hard to ensure that fans know that the latest season of Dog's Most Wanted is all for Beth. He may be taking it one day at a time, but he's definitely not letting her be forgotten.