Billie Eilish on Thursday gave an interview which is part of the Gayle King Grammy Special. During the interview, the teenager revealed that she had never thought she would get to 17`, and confessed that at some point she had suicidal thoughts. She recalled a time she was in a hotel room in Berlin when the suicidal thoughts were into her. The situation was quite emotional as she thought of how she would die, possibly after dropping down through the window. She was ready to do it!