The only daughter of Dog the Bounty Hunter and Beth Chapman is hoping to leave the devastation of 2019 behind in the dust, and she’s reflecting on the unfortunate life lessons she learned after a turbulent year. Bonnie Chapman took to Instagram as she and others prepared to welcome 2020, and penned an emotional letter going into detail about her year, in a post titled “Goodbye 2019.”
“2019 takes the cake for being the worst year of my life,” Bonnie began her letter.
“The year started off on a good note, I got to talk to a YouTube that I loved to watch and it made my year. I then got my dog, Sophie, a few days later. She has brought so much joy into my life. I started off this year campaigning for the HRC (Human Rights Campaign) I worked there very briefly because it was a winter break job, but I loved the fact I was making a difference.”
Bonnie then said her joy was brought to an abrupt end after her best friend committed suicide.
“January 11th was one of the worst days of my life, my best friend Elysia had taken her own life. I had promised her that I would be there to scare away her demons, to hold her when she felt like the world was crumbling, but I wasn’t able to be there for her.”
Bonnie writes that after the loss of her friend, “I didn’t have much to motivate me,” and credits her close friends with helping to bring her out of the darkness.
Other highs and lows that Bonnie describes are the first stitches she ever received, after cutting herself on a broken jar of kimchee, and burning her arm on “hamburger grease.”
she also writes, “I came out of the closet this year, which was honestly so liberating. Bonnie revealed earlier this year that she is pansexual.
On June 22nd, Bonnie writes that:
“I hopped on a plane to Honolulu. My mom was in a medical [sic] induced coma. My mother had told me last November she had a year left, and it not being November I genuinely thought she was gonna be ok. Until I saw her.”
Reliving the troublesome memory, Bonnie remembers:
“Seeing my mother in her hospital bed, skin and bones, it shook me to my core. To see her so weak was one of the worst things I have ever experienced. We really weren’t prepared. I had gone to therapy for 2 years preparing me for this very moment, yet I wasn’t ready. My mother had woken up at one point, I apologized for being such a brat and she shook her head and assured me I wasn’t.”
Bonnie explains that the exchange with Beth was “my last memory with her.”
Reflecting on the loss of Beth, Bonnie shares that “I know she’s in a better place with no pain, and that’s all I could want. Is to see my mom cancer free and happy. I’m thankful she’s cancer free now, and pain free. I’m sad to never see her again, but I wear her ashes around my neck everyday since. She’s still with me.”
Bonnie admits she spiraled into a “dark place” after Beth’s death, but soon remembered, “my mom wanted me to be happy.” She has since fully committed herself to develop her craft as a makeup artist and it is keeping her positive.
She ended her year-long wrap-up focused on the future:
“I’ve grown as a woman. I’ve learned to channel my sadness, anger and confusion into art. I’ve learned to live life in the moment. Thank you for those who have been with me through every day and every struggle. I hope I’ve made you proud as well. To 2020, hopefully you’ll be better.”